Thank You for everything Adam

It’s so easy to play with love, so easy to fool someone, so easy to make someone cry. But it’s so hard if you’re the one who’s played with, fooled and the one who cried.

I’ve come to realize that destiny can hurt a person as much as it can bless then I found myself wondering why of all the people in the world I can fall in love with, I fell for someone who can never be mine.
 I wish you’ve never been so sweet, I wish you weren’t too special, I wish you never became my world. The problem is you are. I wish I didn’t know you and I wish I didn’t love you. The problem is I do.

I pretended to be deaf when I heard you. I pretended to be blind when I saw the two of you. I tried not to get hurt when I was supposed to. Cause when I saw you happy with someone else, I pretended that I was the one with you. Do you wanna know the difference between the two of us? I trusted you that’s why I held on. I loved you that’s why I let you go. But you? You just left me without any valid reasonNo more crying, I can’t cry anymore. Don’t take my hand this time, just go. And please don’t look back cause I know if you do, I would come running back to you. Why do you have to make me fall when you're not going to catch me? It hurts that you didn't catch me the moment I fell and it hurts even more to see you catch someone else while I was falling.I know as long as you are happy, I can get through this. But it still kills me to see you with her. Not because she is perfect for you, not because she makes you smile, not because she is what you need but because she's my best friend. You said you’ll wait for me but you didn’t. You said we’ll be together but we weren’t. You said you care but obviously, you don’t. Now you say you don’t love me. Well, guess what? I knowI’m always pretending I’m happy when I couldn’t even smile, keep on pretending I’m not hurt now that he’s no longer mine. What would I do if he loves someone new? I’ll just pretend I don’t love him too. I can say I’m fine when you don’t see me cry. I can say I can move on when I couldn’t even try. I can say I’m happy when I just want to die. But I can’t say I still love you when you said goodbye I know I shouldn’t care or wonder how you are. But I just can’t hide the pain inside my broken heart. I’m fighting back emotions I’ve never fought before. Cause I’m not supposed to love you anymore